I then asked spirit what is the meaning for all the changes in my life, why the lessons, why the pain, and when can I live the dream you gave me in my heart. I desire to live every day in love with all, to be successful, find the love, share a love which inspires my heart to jump for joy, I want to see my kids happy and successful, and I want to awaken the world to this truth. But Spirit said all of that is possible, but only after you have accepted the change and awakened yourself, forgiven the past and released the change to see the possibilities of your hearts desires. You must start with one day and you will repeat that day until you get it. You must first change your perceptive of life and love to live your dreams. Go ahead and watch the movie once again and I will show you how you can achieve your dream.
As in the movie I awoke one morning thinking I have seen this before, the same old day repeated once again. This is not right, something is wrong here. This just can not be true, why am I living one of the most painful days of my life. No this is not real, I must be dreaming, how could I see the same situations repeating, the same pains and feeling. No way I don’t believe this is real…I must be dreaming. Oh No Spirit said to me…what you are seeing and feeling is real in many ways. They are your present perceptions and thoughts you allow to play in your mind. This is your first stage of change; this is where you are in total denial of the change. You want to keep everything the same, you want to hold on to your love, your want to stop this day for your fear the change is not your desire and you desire to stay in this day. Yes, you have opened the door to this portal and you must change your thinking and allow the change to happen. Ok Spirit I got it, I will let go of one person and go to others, but wait I am trying that and the same name and person continues to live in my memories. First you must accept the change, don’t deny it, accept it and know you also created this change.
Then I accepted this change and knew for some reason I was reliving this day until I completely accept the change and awaken to my true self. At first I thought this is kind of fun, I get to live the same day over and over again. Wow I can learn about people and master them with my knowledge and wisdom. I know it all, I know when the cars drive by, I know the people, I know what they like and dislike. I will become the master of this day and control others to get what I want from this day. At first I was successful. I even had some fun knowing them and teaching them. But I thought wait this is not the same as it was the first time I kissed the girl, I have to push myself to fit the mold. Oh my, I am not the master of anything; I am just molding myself around them to make myself more likeable. Oh this is not working, I am getting mad. The anger started getting worst and I questioned what is the point of living the same day forever if all I am doing is molding myself to fit in. I asked others what they would do, if they were given the same day to repeat. It was not the answer I wanted, nor what I was doing. Help me Spirit, what is the lesson here. Oh Spirit said, you must change your perception, you are angry because you are changing to meet other people’s wishes and it’s not working. You will never reach your dreams by changing your mission in life to match what other people’s missions are. You must let this go …move on and accept this lesson. It is your dream a chance to meet your dreams, don’t change to meet other people’s dreams.
All this information got me very depressed; I was ready to give up... Oh the movie showed me all my nightmares and thoughts in real form. What is the purpose of this life, why not just end it…it’s a waste of time. Repeating the same errors, living the same nightmares when will this end, when will I die? when. Phil gave me the answer in the movie, you can not just escape this change by giving up. No this day will repeat forever, just like your soul lives on forever. I said, spirit, please let’s stop the movie, this is too painful and I don’t feel good about seeing someone in depression. I have lived my own depression and this is not something I want to see, repeated or felt ever again. Hear me Spirit. Oh spirit quickly told me, its not me showing you the movie, you are the one who turned it on, you are the one doing this exercise. Then spirit told me to remember just like the movie, your thoughts about the pain and depression can be turned off. All you need to do is accept the change, and change your perceptive. I said you mean all my depression is just in my mind like the movie. Wait one minute, if that is true, I can stop the movie or better yet I can change the script to my desires, to the dreams I feel, to the life I want. Oh yes, said Spirit, you can have all of that and more.
Then it occurred to me…this is cool I can recreate a new life. I will be rich, great looking, very successful, on and on the list went. Then I thought I need to get back to spirit and bargain with him to see what I can really get from life. Spirit then told me, you can change your perspective of the past but you can not change the past or should I really say this day. Since you are not really reliving your past just one day of your life. Oh my I forgot about that everything I do change will only occur for one day. I think I understand now Spirit, the bargaining is not really with you, and it’s within me. The choices I make today will affect the change and my thoughts going forward. I need to move from being selfish to of service. Oh, you watched the movie well said Spirit. You should do well with the next part of this movie.
As I watched Phil helping the homeless, kids, and other people, he too was helping himself. I could relate reading to expand his mind and learning to play music. Oh I said to spirit, I did the same thing. Spirit said you did well with change; you filled your mind with books, tapes and thoughts to accept the change and live your dream life. I could not help getting excited when I watched Phil living life to the fullest, helping people all over town, and playing the piano on the stage. Wow you go for it Phil, you accepted the change and made the most out of repeating the same day. Everyone loved him. Then he tells his girlfriend, this is the best day of my life and I don’t care what happens tomorrow, because I am happy and I love you. The next morning he finds himself living tomorrow. Wow, I thought to myself, what a wonderful ending. Then spirit asked me if I got the meaning and was I ready to wake up to tomorrow. I said I think I got it; I need to be true to myself and be the man God created me to be. I need to live in service for all. But most of all I need to forgive, change my perspective of the change and see the potential to serve and love beyond my wildest dreams. Spirit said, I think you got it…the movie is over now and so is yesterday. Wake up and start living life to your fullest potential and be happy, I will take care of the rest.