I went on a search to better understand this thought. I asked friends and family and they gave me a blank look, so I did what I do best researched for the answer. I read books and took a yearlong course just to better understand what an ego is and why was mine so bad. One of the books suggested I needed to let thoughts go and I would feel freedom. I decided to get a bunch of balloons; I wrote the thoughts on each one and let them go. That exercise helped and I started feeling better.
Finally one summer I truly got my answer. I picked a couple tomatoes and cucumbers out of my garden and came in ready to say look what I did. Oh my..that was it. I was taking credit for something I could not do. Sure I planted the seeds and cared for the garden, but it was God who provided the water and sun to make the plants grow. Yet I was the one given the gift of this miracle of fruit just for caring for the garden.
I sat down and thought about all the times I got stuck over the years and yet somehow always found a way out. It really did not matter if it was a task at work, fixing something at home, helping the kids, there always seemed to be someone helping me. I was never alone and yet I was when I stood there beating my chest in pride for what I did.
I finally said my final good byes to my ego and welcomed the spirit into my life. That was truly when I started to feel freedom. Anytime I feel stuck I just close my eyes and ask for help, which is more often these days. Every morning I write from a flow of thoughts which comes to me. I am just the scribe and spirt provides me with the words of joy and love.
In the concept of the power of Now there is freedom in letting go of the past and future and just living in the present moment. When you are in that moment allow the spirit to guide you to freedom and you will truly receive the present of joy and love.
Much Joy and Love to you and yours